He Is In The Hospital (day 1)

I was in Jakarta, midnight, when I got his chat said that he is sick and there is something wrong with his veins and he already went to the clinic and the doctor said that he has to go to hospital.

As a not-crazy girlfriend, it is normal when I feel so worried. The last time he went to hospital and stayed just for few weeks before this happened.

I couldn't sleep the whole night, mom already asked me to sleep because we have to check out from the hotel before 12.

I tried to call him and he just replied not clearly, what I heard is he was talking to the doctor and couldn't talk to me that time.

I was so worried, I kept thinking about him.

I waited for so long till then I decided to call him and still he didn't answer my call at all.

In the morning, I woke up so late and still there was no any news from him.

I threw my self to the warm water, thought that it can make me calm. But no, I was so worried about him.

Almost lunch time, I called him. I couldn't wait for so long anymore, and his friend answered my call, I couldn't hear his voice and THE CREDIT FINISHED!!!

2.29 pm. He talked to me by facebook messenger. I was so happy finally he can tell me his condition. BUT NO! he just say hi, telling something that actually also made me shocked about one of our friend and when I asked about his health he didn't say shit, he just say that he wanted to eat and he went just like that.

I said yes, fine.. I was waiting AGAIN.

Can you imagine, when you are so worried and scared with what happen with the one that you love, and there's no any news about him and actually he still have mouth to ask his friend to text you, chat on facebook or anything to explain what the fuck is happening with him, but your loved one is just feeling "oh.. ok my girlfriend is ok when she find out that I am sick, and that's enough.. she doesn't need to know what the fuck is wrong with my body and what the doctor says.. my girlfriend is awesome!"

4.53 pm. My flight delayed. I checked my facebook, he commented on my photo on facebook. I was so angry! He can open his facebook, chat here and there, commented here and there but cannot give me any news that can make me calm!

I blasted like a dog!

All the bad words fell out so easily from my brain to my hand typing it for him.

I know very well I suppose to not doing it to him. He is sick! He was already in the hospital.

That's the moment where all the feeling I have make me that much angry.

I was worried, I was scared, I was angry.

Can you guys whoever that know this story understand what I felt that time?

I cried while I was typing the chat for him.

He will never know what I felt that time.